What are my main concerns?
In conclusion, it seems that your main concerns are related to the inability to overcome a personal block caused by self-criticism and self-control, which limit your ability to make wise and future-oriented decisions. To overcome this obstacle, you'll need to learn to listen to yourself, acknowledge your fears, and find within yourself the wisdom you need to move forward. The answer to the question therefore is: Open; you have to face the obstacle to solve it definitively.